12.10.07
Years ago around this time I ended our relationship for less than sensible reasons and to this day, I sit here thinking about how that may have just been the biggest mistake I have ever made.
I guess many would think I am just playing the “what-if” game but this kid seriously understood me and what I was going through. I was a less than stellar girlfriend to him and there were many times I thought he deserved better. But I’ve just sat here wondering “what if.”
You know what they say, you’ll never get over the first person you ever loved. I honestly didn’t think this would be true in our case. I thought I was over you a long time ago. But as the final school year comes to an end and we will go our separate ways… I guess it has hit me… I am far from over you. I’m convinced it was the fact that I always knew you would only be a few classrooms away that made me so comfortable with thinking I was done with you. But now that our days are winding down quickly… I have so much to say but you wouldn’t listen.
You know what? I’m just gonna sit here drowning in my thoughts. Chances are, I’ll never say anything at all to you about how I feel. But sometimes I wish I could. I’m just gonna ignore all of this & get on with my life.
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